May 198..

I showed him some gold coins I have. He assessed their value and told me lots of things about stamps and coins. I did not say much, just looked at him. He was able to see very small letters on the coins. I remarked about his eyes being very good. He replied “you have the most beautiful eyes”. His eyes seemed curiously cold to me once, like doll’s eyes.

I wondered what he wanted for his birthday. He did not like to tell me – it would make him blush, he said, but he would have part of his birthday present now. He kissed me for a nice long time. I was praying for a long kiss, not liking these quick pecks I sometimes got.

I always seemed to have a red face and be hot when I went there. I wanted to open the window in his room.