March 198..

I decided I could not go on like that and wanted to discuss things with him, unburden myself to him, tell him that I had fallen in love with him and could he please call me a silly girl. This, I felt, would cure me. I did not mind making a fool of myself – the cure would be all the more effective.

I came to his house on a beautiful Saturday morning and he was out. I tried another day and he was out again.